27. 01. 2006
I just went to my relatives house. It was okay but i am not very close to them at all so quite bored. Later they watching "I not stupid 2" but i request to go home to do homework.
My dad kept asking me not to go home, he say have to respect the elders. I cant take it anymore. It was so bored so i denied my dad's orders and went home. Later dunno when he come back will scold me. But dun care
My cousins all watching the 9pm show in channel 8. so boring that show. hate it. Anyway, my dad just dun understand how i feel. so sad... Not close at all with my relatives, even ask me watch movie with them also not fun one lor, nothing to talk to them. Watching movie with a good friend is then fun, because we got many in common and when the movie got any scene that is our interests we can share it. But dad just dun understand. sigh...
I feel so isolated sometimes, although i noe that i am a true sadist. sometimes i look like quite happy when in fact i am cold in nature. sigh... In sec skool, i dun mix with anyone except for xxxxx xxx. Yar i think thats all. I cant mix around with other gals for some reasons. sigh.. so isolated. That feeling, indescribable. :'(
jolene-
